Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches
It was a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.
The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain around one eye that persists for three hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, excruciating pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Ancient healing texts propose unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.
The disorder were only officially classified by global headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.
Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.
But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a